Hey just firstly,, a big hi to you..

It's very hard to tell someone that is personal to you and especially when they are against/none understand of this issue,,, I do believe people love people it does not matter their sexuality...

I'm struggling with my own insecurities and at this moment I truly believe I have been in the wrong relationships, I feel this has made me depressed, over eat, and feel pretty crap with myself, I dont love myself at the moment and think to myself if I don't how can I see that anyone else would, I don't blame anyone but me and me having the confidence to shout it out "Hey I'm gay" but I don't,,,

I feel my family will not be shocked when I do finally tell all but until then I hide yes in the metaphorical closet...

But in your situation, you are young and I understand that the situation (living with your family) would be devastating if they told you to leave. So I agree, enjoy life, live and be free, enjoy your friends and when the time comes that you can stand on your own two feet if the worse happens, then tell them, if they can't handle it then this is their issue not yours,,,,

I wish you so much luck in your future, sending love, light and laughter.
MMM