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I love to do it outside on a railway platform after sunset surrounded by bright lights which are so much brighter and blend together so beautifully. It's so much nicer if you don't see where you're going but as you just go in circles you don't need to. It's like heaven. No people around or very few. Cameras, but they've never called the cops. I didn't care when manic, but it must've looked strange. I do pretend I wait for my train or I am actually waiting for one.
But when I stay at home I prefer to dance to lose excess energy. It's far more effective.
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide.
See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me.
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