Adam, they say that relapse is part of recovery. Maybe just take this in stride and learn from it and resolve to do better next time. Maybe you don't need to be so hard on yourself. You did 9 months, you can make it that long again and go further. It was just a slip up. You'll be okay.

Don't focus so much on the SH, as on the problem that precipitated it. Maybe you need to see a T or pdoc and get some help for the problems that are causing you to want to SH so you can get through a whole year and beyond.

Good luck.

Seesaw