I'm a 14 year old girl who lives in the UK. I go to a good school and my grades are above average, but have always had trouble organising and completing my homework. At the start of each year or term when I do not have any assignments piled up I manage to keep on track of my homework and hand everything in, but this always deteriorates in a couple of weeks and I find myself either skipping work or doing it the night before it's due.
I've been reading a lot of articles for the past month or so because I got the feeling something wasn't right, and they say that girls are most likely to be perfectionists and whenever something is not completed get upset about it. I am neither of these; I don't feel happy about not getting stuff done, but I feel detached from it. I rarely think about school and shy away from social media because I know I would get bored of it and it would be an extra chore for me. I feel uncomfortable writing this now because I don't like being reminded of myself; whenever I read an article that talks about the reader, I find that I am always imagining a fictional character in place of myself.
My interests change very quickly. If I don't force myself when I don't want to, I never finish books or TV shows that I liked before. I am always starting new things and have had to force myself recently to stick with what I've got. I put off stuff that I enjoy; right now I have some manga that I have been too lazy to order for 5+ weeks. My room is always messy, and I often take shortcuts in doing housework.
My disorganisation affects my home life as well. I want to be a writer and enjoy writing, but after the initial excitement of a new idea or project I find it hard to stay on track, and am afraid to start new projects when I know that they will never be finished. This might just be me being lazy, so I don't want to talk to anyone I know about it. I am afraid that I want to find an excuse for my procrastination so I don't have to take responsibility for it. What is "normal" for not getting projects done or following interests? It would really help if someone replied.
(Sorry for any typos. I wasn't sure where to post this because it looks like everyone here has been diagnosed)
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