i wish i could afford to see her privately but she has decided not to take my insurance. i would need to pay out of pocket. i think she was saying we could work something out if for some reason she can no longer see me in the clinic . otherwise i guess you could say i have a choice pay full out of pocket because she feels she can see me at the clinic . i bet thats when everything changed . she thought i was rich . its my husbands money not mine and he wont agree to pay out of pocket for something my insurance will pay for. i dont blame him . right now im just hurt confused and also dealing with a crap load of family crap that i will never tell her at this point . right now Xanax is my friend .i do have T today MKAC thank you so much for the hugs and encouragement