I had fish and chips for lunch so tonight I have only just eaten and I could only mange a sandwich washed down with milk.

I did go out earlier,I was a little anxious, tired mainly,I worry I won't have the energy to do everything.It turned out more difficult cos my phone ran out of credit so I had to ask the shop keepers to ring a taxi for me,once at the post office and once at the bank.I got through that though.It was pouring with rain non stop the whole three hours I was out.
Luckily I left the cats indoors.

I got round the supermarket and was very disciplined,I didn't buy any cakes,donuts or forbidden foods.Only the healthy foods I need to eat every day and the only treats I allow myself magnum ice cremes.I came in within my budget.
I got tired and had to rest halfway through filling my trolley,and after unpacking it from the trolley to the belt for cashier to run everything through I was tired and needed a rest.I packed it away and got it home,as usual I ws glad to be home and have another shop over and done.

I slept when I got home.Put the shopping away when I woke up and did other chores I had to do.I just had my sandwich after ironing some clothes.I am going to rest now until I decide to go and have my shower.Watch a bit of TV.I am trying not to worry and get anxious about shop days,my fear is my legs will get too weak to carry my weight round to fill the trolley.I think I need to exercise with weights to strengthen my legs.I will try do that every day from now on.

I hope that my fears around people can be sorted too so that I can make friends and not be so alone.I am grateful to have got through today.I must practice acceptance of the things I cannot change,and try not to get anxious and worried before something as simple as going to the supermarket.Marylinx