not feeling so hot this afternoon. (tmi) i got my period yesterday evening and so today i of course feel lovely! [/sarcasm] i am strangely 'down' emotionally, though that could be due to the period & hormones. as i recall i always get a little worse during this time. following in trigger box for tmi and those who don't like blood mentions:
Possible trigger:
i'm feeling weak from blood loss and don't really feel like doing anything but lazing around and eating junk food, which is what i have been doing.
but that poses a problem since the eating disordered part of me wants me losing weight RIGHT NOW, when that is just not plausible. i can't restrict on my period, being already weak. at least i am not binging, but the self-hating voice in my head is going FAT PIG FAT PIG FAT PIG.
on top of this i'm having sort of a bdd flareup. i feel, and look (at least to myself), rather ugly today. i guess i need to accept that at times like this my own perception of what i look like is not reliable and shouldn't be taken as the truth. and stop thinking about it so much!!