You worked through this, granite. You PROCESSED this. It feels different, reading your posts today. Yeah, the going private situation isn't SOLVED yet, but you moved through a lot of it. You just told her, you asked her the scariest thing - can I trust you to hold me worthy? - that's a really huge step.
I think it's something we - people raised as many of us were - ask our t's every session, and what makes every day so miserable.
I told my t today that my mother only appreciated the pink tulips I planted at the old house after she moved to her condo. She harvested a bunch and the other old ladies at the condo were all, oh how beautiful! THEN she was all, oh yeah my daughter planted them. But they were worthless before that, no matter what I said.( I had chosen them to match her dishes.) And I was still worthless.
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