I'm not very active on here because i tend to keep to myself and keep people from knowing me. the last time i posted something to get another opinion i was informed i violated one of the rules.
With that i try again. I'm not looking for advice, sympathy or anything like that. I'm mostly trying to get things out on "paper." Over the last month all i want to do is sleep. Have no desire to do anything productive and have to be forced by my wife to get me to do something. Most times in the form of making me upset because she knows once i get to a certain level of being pissed i start cleaning like a mad man to burn the "fuel."
On the rare occasion that i get out of bed it's because i am going to work. Today i skipped work and just slept all day. Advantage or disadvantage of working for someone who let's me make my own schedule for the most part because he never has a clue which of his 3 store managers has requested me for covering a shift.
I just feel like i've failed somewhere but no clue where or what. It could be my desire to put the stories in my head onto paper but can't or who knows. Am always getting pissed off while at one of the job sites because either i'm left solo and get run over by customers or i come it to cover a shift only to have the person who i'm suppose to work with leave because they are to tired or drunk or some other ********. Reason they don't get fired? at that store i'm the only one out of the entire store with 10 employees that's not related by blood or marriage.
I'm not sure what the point i'm trying to make is right now. all i know is i'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. No i'm not going to hurt myself or anyone, don't believe in that sort of stuff. i would rather keep it inside or vent on the rare occasion on here.