I skimmed a lot of the responses so I think I'm kinda behind, but I've been thinking about ur OP question lucidity n I think it's 50/50. Like knowing we dissociate def have learned how to use it when stuck in situation that I don't wanna be, but then situations that I wanna be in I can end up just blacking out too sometimes. So idk. Guess cuz it's a defense mechanism knowing u can do it then u use it but other parts can use it against u too...not cuz they r being malicious I think back to cuz they r defending themselves or think they r defending me. Cuz we all have different prime purposes and I might not think something is harmful to me but another part sew it as a trigger to them or threat to the whole..I guess that's what the best way I can explain sorry if I'm just repeating what other posters already said... my bad~♦