Like I said treating the most immediate issues is the most important thing. And I understand your feelings about not wanting to be dxd. But your personal safety should be a xoncern. I many dxs some I have done extensive work on others I basically ignore as just a word on a piece of paper. You have to right not to want to be dxs or know if you are but I have found some of it helpful personally as information , a starting point to understand why I do or feel some of the things I do and to point myself in the direction of working on stuff that I dislike that I do or has caused me pain and problems. Sorry if I came off preachy. Didn't mean too. I just got worried when you said you were putting yourself in potentially harmful situations and you didn't really know why. Sorry if I offended you it was not my intention. Just trying to help. Be safe.