Even though I have the quote under my profile pix, "In the waves of change we find our true direction," I personally hate change! This is why I took up the study and practice of Buddhism many years ago...so I could really let it sink in that the only thing permanent in life is impermanence. Even though I have put in a lot of time studying and practicing this concept I still hate change and transition as much as ever.

I am moving to a new apartment in a month. In many ways I found something far beyond my wildest expectations, and there are many positives built into my new home. Yet, I still hate the idea of moving. I actually feel like I won't survive it. I know others will say they hate moving, too, but for me it is ridiculously traumatic. I have moved more than the average person during my lifetime...and once moved halfway around the world...but I still feel exactly the same way every single time I move. I find it almost unbearable. It is not that I like moving around...it is just how my life has gone.

This time I worked myself up into such a state of anxiety I needed medication, for the first time in three years. (And believe me, I am glad it was available.)

I know that no one likes to move, but for me it has become almost a phobia, made worse because now I am on my own and moving alone to a new place.

I know I will survive, but when I move it is so dreadful I feel like I won't survive it. If I am not on Psych Central for awhile it is because I have nothing more to post at the moment. How many times can I post that I am freaked out about moving?

I am grateful for this opportunity to apply the skills I have been learning (on my own) from DBT...it is definitely a form of cognitive behavior therapy I love, even if it is difficult to do at first. Thanks to all who gave me encouragement with my DBT work.