First of all, I just talk to myself in the third person just for the heck of it. It's usually so I can get myself to do something, typically chores around the house I don't want to do. And I've referred to myself in the third person in conversations, I get weird looks. I think I picked that up from my dad.

But I know where you are coming from. It definitely is extremely overwhelming when going through the fluctuations of bipolar disorder as well as the med merry go round to find something to help 'fix it all.' It's like everything takes so much more effort in life and you get to the point of "why do I even bother?" Sometimes you do have to coach yourself to be able to do the simplest of things, even if that means just getting out of bed for the day. It takes a while to recover to feel better, but as you said, "be strong, you can do this". I know you can, and you will. I'm glad you're back on the forum, please take care of yourself. You got this!!