I really glad you are free of her - have you blocked your father too? or have things gotten better for you with him? - and IM sorry you cant work in your chosen field of work at the moment - maybe that will change in time or maybe you will find something else that you enjoy in time - gee I hate that word - time - heard it a lot - symptoms get better in time - pain eases in time etc etc....rambling again arnt I lol sorry

so its the card with the check triggering you? I can understand how that would bring back memories of your time at home - are you able to work at the moment? or are you getting treatment? its hard going through this without a THerapist to help - I had a really good one - now I don't - but I try to remember all he told me

Is there something else you are thinking of doing? workwise?