Dear T, thanks for your honesty. That is the kind of communication that I was talking about so thank you. Problem is it didn't sound very promising. "We can discuss this a little more tomorrow so you have clarification of how I work" sounds like you can't offer what it is both me and old T think I need and what was beginning to work. I hope that I do get clarification and that I can make a decision, though what I really want is for you to say that you will work in the way that is best for me. What would I do if you continued to say that I need to become my own good mother? I will tell you what that is lime for me to hear that. I know it won't work, it hasn't so far. I need you to show me how to do it, i want you to show me how to do it. Old T agreed that it would help. I refuse to get on my hands and knees and beg but I will certainly be tempted. You were my last choice of T. I don't know what I would do. Get back in my box and hide probably. Oh boy oh boy oh boy, this is tough.