Thanks for telling your experience Mondaychild.

What is the question? The question is about relationship between photographer and model.
I think that maybe some of you have taken nude pictures or maybe simply pictures by male photographer and could tell me your experience. Or if some of you are photographer I would like to hear your experience. The question is more about relatipnship between model and photographer not about only me but about other experience too.

Its not true that we dont have relationships, we are friends who had sex but he is not mine and wont be but we are still friends. I think that many of you in your life had at least one relationships which was only sex. People used to have sex when they are single with person they find attractive but sometimes one of them falls in love and then it becomes complicated. I am not sure what I feel but it started like attraction, we were kissing and touching hard and I felt addicted to this. Its weird feelings because Im longing for him in sexual way, I dont know is it love but Im losing my mind when I cant see him, Im going insane. He is worried that I want him to be my boyfriend but I told him that I dont. I just want to be the only one he sleeps with but I dont have need to be his girlfriend. Its some kind of sexual obsession. Sometimes I feel abused and hate him but I cant stop wanting him and I am paranoid and jealous which is an issue, Im taking meds and it helps me a little bit because sometimes I am psychotic, Im bipolar so my thoughts used to be far away from reality. Now its better when I started to take meds because months ago I was completely delusional, I feel sick when I remember this because I ruined my life and relationships with him and also other people, I lived in my own reality and I dont feel when I flow away from reality. Now I feel its not okay with me again because I stopped to take meds, I thought Im okay. Now Im imagining things and the worst thing is that I cant know is it true or not.

If we talk about photoshoots.. I cant believe that men isnt getting off of watching and beautiful naked woman. Maybe they are not acting on it if they are professional but maybe there are men who use it like a reason to get woman they want. Our photoshoot was mixed with sexual actions and Im worried Im not the only one. I dont know. And I dont know is it okay to think about him that bad, maybe the issue is in me.