I have felt a connection with God, and have felt that He loved me, but maintaining that connection is so hard sometimes. Most of the time, I just can't imagine why He would care about me. I guess that a lot of that comes from being dissatisfied with my upbringing, and not feeling cared about by my parents. (They would wonder how I can feel that way, but that's another story). T confronted me yesterday on professing to believe in something (my religion, which teaches of God's love for each of us), and not acting like, showing, or feeling like it actually applies to me. It's tough.

We have been instructed to pray, read the scriptures, serve others, attend church meetings, etc. At least in my church we have - I have no excuse for not knowing these things. But it is so easy to get caught up in the grinds of daily life, and neglect some of these things, which we are taught to do for our own good. I don't know why we struggle with it (why I struggle with it). It doesn't make sense. But if we would do these things, the connection would be there.

How Gentle God's Commands. How kind his precepts are. I don't have the whole song here in front of me, but maybe I'll post it later, or maybe one of you will know it. For me, music is the surest way to regain that connection.

Oh, I found the song online:

How gentle God's commands!
How kind His precepts are!
Come cast your burdens on the
Lord and trust His constant care.

Beneath his watchful eye,
His Saints securely dwell;
That hand which bears all nature up
Shall guard His children well.

Why should this anxious load
Press down your weary mind?
Haste, to your Heavenly Father's throne,
And sweet refreshment find.

His goodness stands approved,
Unchanged from day to day;
I'll drop my burden at His feet.
and bear a song away.

http://www.lisapowellmusic.com/how_gentle.htm