Yes, all the time. I'm tired of battling everything in my life. Everything seems to be a battle. I'm waiting for things to fall into place but I know better because everything has been a fight for me for the last 30 years. I'm trying to make a major change right now (job, location) hoping it will be a new start. I live in a very expensive, stressful part of the country where everyone is hustling hustling hustling and there doesn't seem to be any mercy to anything. I want out, I want to slow down, I want normalcy. Having BP makes me feel like I'm in a rut. I'm lucky in many ways but I don't embrace any of it. I categorically dismiss any talk of "being thankful". I just want to be.