Have you ever felt that you are beyond repair? Few years ago I would see myself successful socially and financially, and that hope allowed me to sacrifice a lot, but now I'm so desperate and hopeless because even though I have a relatively decent job (I could earn 3 times as much if I have the energy and motivation), I don't have anyone in my life to share it with or at least enjoy it with, and it's not going to happen any time soon. I feel so isolated that my whole life is meaningless. I see all these people enjoying their times together when I go out, while I'm so alone and sad. I'm just killing time these days and wishing something happens to me, and ends this suffering called life.