My story started twelve years ago. In 2004 I was first diagnosed and I fought with suicide and depression over the years. I had many jobs but always a dependency on alcohol as well. I have been on disability for 9 years and I think its a life sentence, I don't think I could handle a job in my current state.

I have no idea what I am going to do with my life or if this is just it for me. I can't depend on my parents forever and I doubt my sister will take care of me. I am at a loss right now, but I hope it gets better. I am 35 now about to turn 36 with no goals and no future. Also I may die alone. I have no husband and no kids and don't think it will ever happen for me.