I understand your feelings of awkwardness. I agree with music lover, cbt is good for coping skills, but it can't fix the chemical imbalances in your body that are causing your bdd symptoms. I think speaking to a psychiatrist and being totally honest with them is the way to go. Being a man is not determined by might makes right, or domination games. Being a man means taking responsibility for your life and the decisions you make. Men can be compassionate, and empathetic, without being feminine. Your illness is skewing your perceptions. My prayers are with you.

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