Thank you both for your direct response. I think I kinda knew the answer. Obviously there is something there or I would not be wasting so much energy trying to find ways of avoiding a frank discloser with T. I guess this may be a sign of progress. At least now I can't say 'I don't have any feeling about what happen.' I now at least acknowledge that I am incredible uncomfortable with what happened and have made the connection that it might be affecting my present life.

Thanks again for your support and for serving as a reality check for me.