I don't have a lot to say tonight, both because I should be sleeping (have to be up in 3 hours) and because I am too emotionally drained.

I have put myself through an emotional roller coaster for the last 3 months, knowing it was for nothing. Knowing it was toxic and bad for me. And I don't know why.

I've said I was done over and over, but I am DONE done. I hate the other person. Like, I have absolutely no happy memory of them. I only feel anger, hurt, and the desire to punch them in the face. And I'm angry at myself, because I know better than to allow someone to manipulate me, and treat me like dirt. Or, I thought I did. Blocking me on social media, blocking photos from view on Instagram, withholding, manipulating, playing mind games etc etc etc, and making me feel like I'M the bad guy, I am over reactive, there's something wrong with me. Making an offhanded comment which made me cry, pushing it a little further and then saying, "But that was meant in jest; you always do this..."

No. Nope. I wasn't like this three months ago. You controlling, manipulative ****. We're not even friends. And I hope there is another girl. And I hope she treats you exactly like you treated me.

Anyway. That is all.

PS Now he's blocked...and I NEVER block. But it's effing time.