Thanks candy for your post. I think I posted that this morning because I was just off out to my T session and was afraid if I bottled it all up till I got there, that I'd explode.

T says, I had no choice, I said of course I did, I could have walked away, she said no, I dont think you could have or was able to have.

I told her about my thoughts last night of "ending" it all, but I struggled also with the fact that I've been in T for 3yrs now, what would that all mean if I gave up now?

Though that doesn't make it easier. We talked some more about choice, she said I was able to make a choice last night when thinking about ending it and thinking about how far Ive come in 3yrs.

I saw then what choice feels like, I realised that Its true, I never had a choice before, my needs drove me on.

I've got to find a way to come to peace with all of this, as no one is going to trade in my life history for another one, my life story is my life story.

Who said life was meant to be peaches and cream? I guess no one ever did.

thanks for reading.