My friend wanted to be a model when she was 17. She went to two photographers to do shoots and both times was seduced/raped. She was very naive and allowed these men's advances.

Your amateur photographer has a seduction routine going to use on vulnerable young women. At least he is honest about it by telling you up front that he doesn't want to be your boyfriend.

And yet you still fell for him. Why? What are you thinking? Why are you setting yourself up for pain?

I suggest you completely break it off with Phooey Photographer and find a nice person to go with to a movie and to dinner. Start treating yourself better taking steps to build better self esteem.

If a guy who you are attracted to says he doesn't want to be your boyfriend, leave him be, don't sleep with him.