So last night was a bad night for me. I can't really remember much except feeling depressed and suicidal. There was one point were i was standing on the top of a 100ft+ bridge waiting to fall off as i was drunk but of course it didn't happen.

I would have gone through with it but at the time i was going to jump, three young girls walked passed and when they walked away i couldn't climb back up as i was way too drunk.

I then proceeded to text my drug dealer at 11:30 PM for some hash as it calms me down. I walked home, Then t the atm for money then to my dealers house for cigarette papers then i walked back to my house.

I've had around 4 hours sleep, Feel fine except a little paranoid a still depressed. More times now than ever i have hallucinated a a couple times and had a minor delusion.

Does this sound like the lead up to an episode?