I have wondered why I am suddenly a basket case in my life and why it is occuring now. I am now away from abuse - far from childhood and 2 years divorced from an abuser.

But

I am now having a very difficult time coping in the everyday. In my past life, one of the ways I would cope was to have a BUSY BUSY life and never stop moving. My life was so full I didn't address some of the more obvious things in my marriage that were a problem.

Now, I am nearly crippled by my grief and anxiety. The feeling I can most identify with is HURT. But, my T is amazed that she sees almost no anger in me. She also explains my current state as someone coming out of a deep freeze that had to be maintained to cope but now all my feelings are coming out in the thaw. And what I feel is RAW. It takes nothing to trigger the heck outta me.

It hurts like h*ll! I am overwhelmed by my feelings and cannot concentrate to work. It is all I can do to hold on and maintain to raise my child and function at work. I worry constantly that I will lose my job because I am so conflicted and unable to focus.

I do see a professional weekly and we have tried various meds to help me so I am doing all that I can to get things under control. I tell her i wish I could schedule my breakdown because I MUST be able to continue to work and focus and raise my child for now.

Have others experienced this 'thawing out' and being overwhelmed with feelings so long repressed in order to live?

Juli