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Old Jun 02, 2016, 11:23 AM
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Originally Posted by bluebicycle View Post
Why are you ashamed? Did you do something especially idiotic?
No, the usual.

But I am uncertain about whether I was manic or not. Usually you'd be able to tell afterwards, but I can't really. So maybe it wasn't mania then. Or maybe it was but I'm not depressed so I don't feel as ashamed or guilty as I otherwise might have been.

Maybe I don't have depression anymore. Just mania. Or maybe neither. Or maybe I'm just manic/psychotic all the time.
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