i'VE BEEN 3 WEAKS WITHOUT HURTING MYSELF BUT I FEEL THAT OVERWELMING FEELING AGAIN. ITS REALY BAD. IF I START I WANT STOP. MY BOYFRIEND WILL FREAK IF I START FOR SOME REASON HE CARES IF I DO IT. FOR SOME REASON HE LOVES ME. I DONT WANT HIM TO BE MAD.ANY ADVICE