If that is possible!

Part of me can't wait to see T and practically hug him because my weekend with dad went fabulously!!! Somehow having my brother and mom come with me in sessions has changed the whole family. I know the information has passed to my dad, that is how this dysfunctional family works...

My dad was his old self though, we laughed and teased each other, had the same debates over and over. Finally at the end when I was taking him back to the airport I told my dad I loved him and that I know he did the best he could and that the best part of me and what I have achieved is because of him.

I had my arm reached out to him, he was in the backseat with my son. He held my hand...and didn't let go. He had tears in his eyes and said 'really honey, you mean that?' I am not kidding...my dad a real life Tony Soprano actually said those words, tears in mine which never happens. Yes, I was driving and wondering how I was managing to do both.

Then when he got out of the car he turned and looked at me and actually said this:

"that therapist you see, I hear he's a good guy, both your brother and mother liked him, give him a chance to help you, don't push him away like you do to me sometimes"

That did it...I froze.

My dad hates therapists...doesn't believe in the whole concept so I thought... He used to say 'if they cure you they don't make money anymore so you're never cured'...

What happened to my real dad? who is this person?

The guy at the airport started banging on my window and saying GO! I had to start going but my head was in a fog the entire way home...

Some of you will find this weird but I am 37 and it doesn't matter. My dad still thinks I am 16 and will always be checking out who is in my life one way or another...I guess this is why the other two came to the sessions with me.

It worked we're all starting to talk more now and we'll see how it goes.

I'm sad because I feel T is not connected to me WHY IS THIS? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?