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Originally Posted by s4ndm4n2006
I'm sorry you're having to worry about this. Not something any 20 something should have to deal with let alone your own child  I wish I had something to say that could help but I can say I feel for you, with two sons at home myself approaching that age (16 an 14).
knowing personally how depression is, I cannot imagine one of my own children having to deal with it. I hope if he goes in patient that he will get the help he needs.
As for the guilt, I get that too but keep in mind it's highly likely that none of this is anything you should feel "guilty" over. Compassion, sadness and such but just not the guilt. That is most likely undeserved. |
I took responsibility for everything my son has went through. That I couldn't protect him from feeling hopeless, that I couldn't fix his sadness. That he inherited my curse and hence, my fault. Logically, I know it isn't, I know I provided a secure and stable, loving home. That I allowed him a place to succeed and fail, that I've loved/love him, that I gave him room to become his own person and to find and form his Outlook on the world.
I have to remind myself that he is an adult now and makes his own decisions about his life. I have to watch him make mistakes and hold my tongue. I have to hope that what I provided will be enough for him to fall back on when he needs to fall back.
As it stands, he was here last night and he is "fine", for now. I have to let that be too. I can only do something when he decides and keep my boundaries intact so I don't walk around with a hole in my gut from worry.
What a heart wrenching job it is to be a parent.
#Life is a beautiful lie#