hello Danica..i just found you all of a sudden when searching for people with big problems like yours...I do not come and visit this site very often ..are you talking about WHAT i think you are talking about??if YES,,please reply ,,i would love to chat with you sometimes,,,it would be nice to have more people to talk to when feeling so desperate,and in my case,pretty determined to at some point this year carry it out...i cannot either stand my life much longer......