It sounds like it is hard for you right now straddling the T/father divide? They're so different.

With regards to your father not liking therapists; mine didn't either and I only learned well into therapy that my mother, who'd had grand mal seizures from her brain tumor, was sent to a psychiatrist first, because everyone said it was "all in her head." This was back in the 1940s when brain tumors weren't understood and there was no CT or MRI scans yet, etc. So I can understand now how my father got to not liking "shrinks" :-) It was always hard for me to remember that older people had whole lives before we were even born and their experiences were quite different from ours. I'm only beginning to understand that now as I get older (I'll be 57 next month) and look at my stepchildren now and what they ask/say.

I'm glad your family is talking together better, that's part of why you entered therapy isn't it? That's good. I think the feeling of separation from your T is temporary and will resolve?