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Originally Posted by Ruari
I don't have a lot to say tonight, both because I should be sleeping (have to be up in 3 hours) and because I am too emotionally drained.
I have put myself through an emotional roller coaster for the last 3 months, knowing it was for nothing. Knowing it was toxic and bad for me. And I don't know why.
I've said I was done over and over, but I am DONE done. I hate the other person. Like, I have absolutely no happy memory of them. I only feel anger, hurt, and the desire to punch them in the face. And I'm angry at myself, because I know better than to allow someone to manipulate me, and treat me like dirt. Or, I thought I did. Blocking me on social media, blocking photos from view on Instagram, withholding, manipulating, playing mind games etc etc etc, and making me feel like I'M the bad guy, I am over reactive, there's something wrong with me. Making an offhanded comment which made me cry, pushing it a little further and then saying, "But that was meant in jest; you always do this..."
No. Nope. I wasn't like this three months ago. You controlling, manipulative ****. We're not even friends. And I hope there is another girl. And I hope she treats you exactly like you treated me.
Anyway. That is all.
PS Now he's blocked...and I NEVER block. But it's effing time.
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Although I'm glad in the end he's blocked and you're resolute in cutting him off, I'm sorry that you had to go through what you did to come to that conclusion. You deserve to be treated with respect and if he was done with your relationship with him, you deserve to have been let go respectfully without the manipulation and damaging behavior.
I've been here, exactly where you are and I have even allowed it to happen to me from the same person more than once so there is absolutely no judgment here, only understanding. I just don't understand what people like them, get out of it by doing this to others.
*hugs*