Again I had this dream where I would go to Berlin. I dreamed about it in the past. Berlin in my dream is mostly this huge, dark shopping mall along with rail station. In real life I live not so far away from this city, about 5-6hours by car, but in my dreams it's much much closer and I feel this joy of visiting a place completely different, yet so close. I remember meeting some new people, hanging out with some extremely rich girl who owned a Porsche, I had a ride in it and remember saying to my father, who somewhow was there, that it's a shame we need to drive an old car and can't afford anything better. Then there were some things happening but i dont remember much, and then I would go to the shopping centre, bit lost, tried to talk to people but somehow they were speaking in many different languages. Then I remember meeting my mother and watching caged rats with her, and I opened one of the cages and two rats were gone and I started crying. Then some guy came and said "It doesn't matter, there are many more here" but I didn't agree with him and was very upset.

Berlin is a very rich, fascinating city, I'd always say I want to live there. Even the dream books say it's about financial well being, abundance for which you need to sometimes pay with loss.

I always isolated myself from the people I've known because I was jealous of their relationships with each other and their financial status, because we live on a completely different levels and I never felt equal, especially with my current underachievements. That came to the point where not single one of them cares about me and I see them hanging out together and stuff.