Yeah, well, I've come to the conclusion that my mother is kind of shallow. She spends her evenings after work watching those "housewives" shows and other various reality shoes like that. She's a good hard worker, and I think she means well, but yeah, I'm not letting her get me down. I'm just annoyed that she was so overly critical. She has always been that way, come to think of it.

Once, after I had done some serious face picking and left some pretty noticeable sores on my face (I have dermatillomania), she said I resembled "drug addicts who pick at their skin all the time". She wanted me to realize that what I was doing was unattractive and meant well, but she came off as rather rude and insensitive.

That's not the worst of it, she once told me when I was 14 that my butt was saggy and that I shouldn't wear the style of swimsuit I had been wearing at the time. I was 98 lbs...HOW ON EARTH CAN A 98 LBS, 5"2' 14 YEAR OLD HAVE A SAGGY BUTT? And she wonders why I secretly stopped taking my Abilify for a year and a half. I did it because I wanted to be thin again and get her off my back about my body (I had gained a good 3rd of my current weight after starting it).

Anyways, I could go on and on but what good does that do me now? I'm better than that, than her. I'm not having kids of my own so I won't have any opportunity to smack them around and tell them they are fat. I refuse to perpetuate the cycle.