I often go long periods without questioning my diagnosis---after all, four different mental health professionals have diagnosed me with bipolar---but every now and again I get a wild hair and decide I've just been in a lengthy existential crisis all this time and I don't need meds. I've never actually tried to come off them, however. I don't have the nerve. I'm just afraid that if I really do have BP, I'll have to start out all over again with the med-go-round. And I don't want to do that.