Sorry you're going through this

I've lived on my own a very long time and sometimes I love it, but sometimes I get scared too. I dissociate constantly, but I don't really know any other way to be - Im just noticing it now. Recently, something bad has awoken in me and things are getting out of hand. I have quite bad asthma, and twice in the last month I've had an asthma attack, grabbed my inhaler and sprayed, only to find the inhaler has been sabotaged in some way. There was no possible way anyone else could have accessed my inhaler, so it must have been me Its a very very scary world we live in. I wish I could give you lots of advice on how to deal with it. But I have nothing! I just wanted to let you know you're not alone.