On Monday I was admitted IP for BP and PTSD. Since then I have spiralled further and they gave me an injection (Accuphase) to calm me down. It didn't, it only made me more agitated leading me into two days off hell before it washed out of my system. Now I am deeply depressed and on suicide watch. The agitation is still bad and I am also irritable, inpatient and anxious. SI has been prominent and they have been seriously considering locking me up for my own safely. Today my doctor, nurse manager and nurse jumped a meeting on me about how to manage my safety and how upset the nurses are worrying about me as I am at risk. I felt ambushed and it freaked me out. I now feel scared to say how I really am as I don't want to upset people or get myself locked up. Problem is, if I am in danger I will be at greater risk.

Sorry for the rant. I am just so upset, low and agitated, My doctor said he has never seen me this low which is a worry. I need help but now I am scared to ask.