To answer prefab: No support other than I see a T. There is none available. I don't know what other support would be available, though.

I have been on meds, a widely varying cocktail, for years. From antipsychotics to anxiolytics to antidepressants. I have never noticed a lasting change (for the better) on any of them, and it's because, in my opinion they aren't treating the root cause of the depression, which is my life. You can throw meds at a person all you want but if life isn't changing, then I mean, meds can only do so much. Kinda like if you give a really obese person meds for high blood pressure. They're probably still gonna have high blood pressure. Might not be as high, but it's still going to be high.

I am currently on a moderate dose of Wellbutrin and Topamax, but the Topamax is actually for migraines, not mood stabilization. After being on some meds that have really screwed with my head and messed with my weight, I am reluctant to mess with things too much. One pdoc suggested ECT, and I refuse. For one thing, I don't have the time in my life--you have to go 3 days a week for a period of time, and I couldn't take the time off. Plus, there is no one whom I could count on to drive me to and from something like that. (I've had to put a few medical things off because I didn't have a driver). But also, I've seen ECT, and I know it works for people, but I can't risk losing memory. My livlihood depends on my memory too much.