Thanks so much, Ruari.

Meditation doesn't sound "new age" to me. I was on the receiving end of MBCT (Mindfulness Based Cognitive Therapy) for a long time and mindfulness meditation used to help somewhat, although not always, perhaps because I wasn't constant in practicing it. I have a CD with guided meditations and also an app on my smartphone. I should start it all over again, it might help.

I've been on the same meds for a while now. I've been on Abilify for 3 and a half years, and on Lamictal for about 6 months or so. So I don't think it's the meds.

I used to dissociate from time to time, when I was very stressed out, but now I do it almost all the time, and it's scary. I just hope my new T will be able to help. She's specialized in BPD and also in trauma, so she might be the right one for me - or at least, I hope so.