I am starting to understand what I am doing that causes people to blow me off: I don't share with them, not really. I also am a terrible communicator. I don't let people know that I need them, and I'm terrible at following up with them.

There are people who blow me off, and I blow them off. Nothing really personal. The connection wasn't there. I try not to take those situations too personally. I am in the making friends stage. I am trying to expand my network, and have a variety of human contacts-hopefully some close ones, and then more casual ones.

Sometimes I connect more with someone but they don't connect with me. That hurts. Also, friendships change over time. Sometimes a long term friendship ends. That hurts, too. I am trying to accept that relationships change and hopefully new ones take their place.

Still sucks as my friendship making skills are iffy. I try not to be disappointed. But it's hard when one is starting from a very lonely position.