Thanks to all for your support. I just had an appointment with my pdoc and he was very pleased with my trip and how I have been dealing with these issues. He thinks I have made a tremendous amount of growth in issues with my father and issues about sobriety. Its good to hear the feedback from you all and him.
It seems that my attitude of gratitude (sorry, I have to borrow those AA sayings every now and then) has been key to resolving so many issues. Every day when I wake up I realize how lucky I am and I am grateful for not only my sobriety but for my life. So many people don't have what I have and may never get it. Sure, my sobriety was not given to me--I had to work for it, but I do feel fortunate in the sense that all of my life circumstances came together in such a way that I got sober.
My sobriety has led to a whole new life--one that is much happier and fulfilling. I have the chance to come to terms with my past and to possibly repair relationships that would have otherwise remained damaged forever. I have so many more opportunities available to me now that I am sober.
To tell you the truth--I don't know how this gratitude happened to me. At some point in time I just realized I felt fortunate to be sober. Before that I hated sobriety and I hated the fact that my drinking had been taken from me. I felt robbed and I looked forward to the day when I could drink again. Somewhere along the line, my thinking transitioned into gratitude. I am not even sure of when it happened...I know its been several months, but I don't know how many. This makes for a much happier life. Today, I don't want to drink and I am grateful to be sober.
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You don't have to fly straight...
...just keep it between the lines!
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