I am so sorry! I understand your pain. I lost my daughter a few years back, although it wasn't to death. She's still out there somewhere... and so are the two grandsons that I was so very close to.

I also lost my mother to death 22 yrs ago. I checked out mentally and emotionaly then. Went into a deep depression and anxiety.

Just the other night I was speaking to my mother. Today, I heard a song that reminded me of my daughter. It still hurts. I still cry. But God didn't call me home when I wanted Him to. So... I knew that I had to keep on living.

It may not feel like it to you at this moment, but you still have a whole life ahead of you. You are still YOU. The only thing that will change is that you'll be a better person for having gone through this terrible time.

You are not alone. Joining a support group of parents who have also lost a child would help you tremendously. Go. Join... with no expectations. Just go even if it's on "automatic pilot."

Your little angel was here for whatever God wanted her to do in your life. Don't waste that experience. When you do some healing, you may be able to see things more clearly.

One foot in front of the other... baby steps... but keep going. It will all be worth it. I promise.