I'm repeating my prior post to you on this thread. It's still what I think about your situation.

"You're just scared, and that's ok.

I don't think there is any need to write anything about specifying your intentions on a profile. Just put yourself out there, start dating, and see what happens. Sometimes you won't click at all, sometimes you'll get laid on the first date and won't ever call her again, and you just might meet the love of your life.

You don't really even know what you want. You just need to have experiences. Have fun. Be nice."

I remember a prior post of yours about the girl who is the receptionist at the gym. That was yours? Like Divine says, everybody has given you lots of advice about approaching and dating girls.

Bullying and rejection in youth is so much more damaging than anyone ever thought. I experienced it, too. It damaged my husband, too.

I hope you find the confidence to let yourself do what you want to do.

Also, I don't judge you at all regarding the escorts.