You are so right. I've been abused in my childhood for many many years and then as an adult I've ran into abudive issues as well. Then unfortunately my life really sucks. I've been dissociating since I was really young. I guess when I was young to me is daydreaming. I would rock on a chair for ours in this imaginary world full of people who I knew in my real world an people who I made up in my head. I still do it today as well. I brought it up to my T and she didn't seem interested but to me it's a big part of my life. I just don't think that she knows how to approach it. I have to watch myself because I'll catch myself making facial gestures. It's my way of getting away but I find that it's an obstacle in my real life. I see that but I can't do much it with it and it's my crutch. As for the person who abused, I still have contact sporadically. I've learn to accept it and I've had so much going on in my world that now it's become one of many things. I sometimes feel like the world is against me. In fact I feel that now. This is something that I'm battling and it's only getting worse. Now with my therapy break I'm even worse but I can't go back.