I think I have sucky insight. I listen as much as I can but when I'm gone, I'm gone. She saw me at my highest in a while. I told her about thinking if I cut a healing light would come out of me and the time I tried to preform a tummy tuck on myself. She seems to think it's okay because I stop myself before things get to far. I don't know if it's her or me but asking me what I want to work on/why am I in therapy stresses me and I don't know the answer and I know I need it. It keeps me out of the hospital. I just want to be sane.