You have very poor insight into your own condition a great deal of the time. You need a therapist who will see you regularly and help monitor your status. You need a therapist who will work with you on developing that insight and skills so that you don't decompensate so severely and so quickly. Apparently this therapist is not the one if she thinks you are doing that already. Saying an online forum and a mentally ill husband are you support system; therefore, you don't need a therapist is a crock.