So I go onto a dating app get matched with a lot of guys. It's annoying that I didn't match with any girls because honestly all I am looking for is friendships someone I can get close to and give my true self to. Then this guy asks me on a date and I start to panic all I can think of is being stabbed and murdered. Then I just felt this tight feeling in my chest like a boa constricter and I think that was when I realized that I am seriously damaged and I am not sure if I will ever be able to have a boyfriend just for the fear of god that it puts in me...