Hello all! I've recently had a near mental breakdown and a concerned family member desires that I get help. After pondering my symptoms I've come to the conclusion that there is a minor possibility that I have Bipolar disorder due to the history of mental illness in my family and I.

Symptoms
I have random bouts of extreme anger and sadness, in these episodes I'll lash out at almost anyone, I even stooped as low as to cuss out my little brother for something that in hindsight was extremely trivial. In my worst moments in which I've felt this way I've even physically lashed out on my family(rare) and myself. I find that even when I'm not in this mood I still find myself making rash decisions(when I even can) that I end up regretting almost immediately.

When I CAN(most times) keep my feelings internal I have mental battles with myself; in the morning I'll feel great and like I'm the coolest guy in the world who can't stop talking and by the evening I'm an alienated paranoid guy who wants to just give up on everything. People often comment on how erratic I am. It's gotten to the point to where, essentially one day in superman and the next day I'm contemplating my own life, this pattern has been going on for years I'm only 18 now. This can't be normal.

I went to my doctor recently to try to be put on my old anxiety pills but alas I could not and was instead referred to a physiologist(despite the fact that I hardly have the time). If anyone could evaluate my symptoms and give me any advice that would be great. Thanks for your time.